“The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.”
Job 3:21 (ESV)
On December 2, 2003 I received my greatest and worst birthday present ever; the birth and death of my first child. Isabella Danielle Hulsey was born into Heaven on my 35 th birthday. Having waited 8 years for her arrival, her death was devastating to my wife and me. She had only existed for 17 weeks in the safety of her mother’s womb, but it doesn’t change the fact that her short life had a life changing impact on my own life.
I had dreams for her. I wanted to watch her grow into a woman. I wanted to teach her to ride a bike, tie her shoes, and catch a fish. I looked forward to the day she graduated high school and finished college. I had already begun to feel nervous about her first date, the prom, and giving her to another man at her wedding. These are the things that are permanently lost to me.
As I watched these dreams die on that cool night in December, I felt inadequate. I was faced with a problem I couldn’t fix—a repair I couldn’t make. She was forever gone and wouldn’t come back to me. I felt as if God had stolen her from Heather and me. She was our princess, a pearl we’d waited 8 years to find now out of my reach. I knew that God could return her to me in an instant if He so desired, but He didn’t.
As I held her tiny, fragile form in my hands; I took the opportunity to memorize her face, hands, feet, and everything else I could remember. She was perfect in every way. Knowing that God took the time to create such a wonder truly amazed me and helped me to realize how important we are to him.
It was at that moment that I promised Isabella that her death would not be in vain. I would search for God’s purpose in my life and make every effort to fulfill it. I’d prayed for purpose before, but God never answered. Perhaps her death has made that purpose clear; perhaps her death opened the door to His answer.
I will always mourn for my daughter, but I will always have peace in knowing that she will never suffer because she is with her real Father. Someday I will join her because God the Father willingly sacrificed His own Son for us and enabled us to have true rest after the body is gone. Knowing this I can now honestly say that God has not taken my daughter; He has given me purpose.
– Bo Hulsey
Glory Babies Group: Tyler